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<p>copied from journal 29 March 2009</p> <p><b>New page</b></p><div>Robin was my connector 29 March 2009 ISIS 101.02<br /> <br /> touch on side (where I thought Steven would touch)<br /> <br /> Civil war bayonette<br /> <br /> She was the woman I love most ever ever ever. my wife was a native american and knew everything<br /> about the land and earth and everything. So much love for her. Now I keep looking.<br /> <br /> Rei was the best, and right there... so much anger at myself to have not broken up with Hitomi and<br /> lose Rei as a result.<br /> <br /> Now I&#039;m with Ami and knowing I should break up with her, but fuck how? Why can&#039;t I? She&#039;s cute she<br /> cooks she&#039;s great but isn&#039;t for me. I keep looking<br /> <br /> First it was Robin, but oh she has Neil. Then Jacquelen, but ah she has Simon. Now Tina looks<br /> pretty cute but ARGH this is a stupid cycle.<br /> <br /> I just need to do my work. I&#039;m going to build a retreat center and train people like Helma. I have<br /> so many talents but what to do? just do my work and she&#039;ll come.<br /> <br /> <br /> Questions that arose during feedback circle:<br /> <br /> # Is it possible that my lack of responsibility keeps me from having what I want?<br /> # What is it about the DESIRE? I &quot;want&quot; to do the work, but what&#039;s under that want?<br /> <br /> [[category:ISIS]]<br /> [[category:ISIS 101]]</div>

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