Clairvision:ISIS 0004 - recovery from ritual suicide

Expanded from my journal

22 July 2008

Did ISIS with Kevin as my connector, and it was quite cathartic as I experienced a death and its related sadness and totally transmuted it to the freedom of having died and being free of my body.

He had placed his hand on my gut somewhere, and I felt pain like he was pressing too hard. Instead of telling him to lay off, I figured maybe there's something else (maybe other people could take this much pressure and feel no pain). I told him about the pain; it was like a knife stabbing into me. I found myself as a Japanese warrior who had shamed my family/shogun/community and required to perform ritual suicide. After I died, I remained in the location, just sitting in shame, with no consideration of leaving.

Kevin was like, "what do you feel?"

"Nothing; I'm dead."

"Look around you; what do you see?"

And I suddenly realized I did *not* have to stay there; I was whisked quickly into the next realm and bathed in love and lovely vibrations. Just amazing to float in blissful happiness.

It was great and I was like let's do that again!

I don't remember many details after being released from the shame, save that the tingling sensation was the most profound I had ever felt. I felt it in my head, arms and torso, though not really in my legs.

But still.. totally delicious.