Clairvision:ISIS 0009 - earthquake victim was tyrant father

Found myself back under the rubble after an earthquake(?) in China, post television, pre computer days. So sad: unable to help people around me. Sadder: not able to help my family. Died, relaxed, went back to my body, pain and sadness and anger: Why wasn't I allowed to finish? I was asked this lifetime to work hard for my family and I worked my proverbial ass off but not allowed to see it through? Not allowed to see them succeed? I only wanted to help my family... I only wanted to let them go to school and have a better life than me. I just wanted my kids to work hard like me. I wanted my efforts not to be wasted. I pushed them to work hard... Oh shit I was a tyrant. I pushed too hard; I had no idea I was doing anything wrong. Oh I'm so sorry my dear family; you're better off without me, and I'm so sorry I hurt you. I thought I was doing just the right things. Back to death: back home. Guilt and shame soothed by peace and angelic waves.