Clairvision:ISIS 0018-small choices = big results
Neryl touching center of my sternum: ISIS 101.04
Trip slip on rocks and fall dead down a cliff, just from a small mistake, how can such a tragic outcome come out? This lifetime? Been in Tokyo for six years of bullshiz on just my small choice to go there, with no research, etc.
"when was the first time you felt this?"
Tumbled back in time and glimpsed my most beautifulest wife ever, on the porch as I had to decide between love and money, supporting my family directly or indirectly, and I would do anything for them (huge sadness of loss), so I went to the war to make money and then die and they didn't get any money anyway (huge anger of unfairness), and now I don't want to chase money, fuck the government and lying banks.
Just feel the feeling of feeling the sadness. Soggy wet sloppy sadness.
"Howe does it feel inside the sadness?"
WTF ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
Sadness feels sad. Go fuck yourself wif deez questions.
Sat with Jacquelen looking over the valley during dinner. She helped me get an idea of how to answer the question, starting with how the emotion manifests itself in my body. Tightness here, heaviness there... ah I can answer that kind of question.
After dinner, after listening to _Highness_ (17.19) where Alcibyadi helps Szar with his hand, we did some meditative aspirations, and then eye contact for a few minutes sharing impressions. Jacquelen and I spoke nothing verbally, and everything non-verbally.
When asked to tune in to our hearts, I got the sense of my heart being warm and big and loving and strong. woah. hadn't felt that before. It was like the words just came as I tuned into its essence.
After the process, no one wanted to move. I smiled at Jacquelen. Turned toward Ange and said to them both, "I felt my heart."
high five!
