Clairvision:ISIS 0019-womb emergency
Stephanie with point on right chest. ISIS 101.05
Nothing at first. This doesn't work. I can't; I just want to do the right thing. I love her smile. Tina, Ami, Angelina Jolie. I want to make Ange smile. [crying crying gasping crying] I just want to make her happy. I just want to be cute and funny. Feels warm and fuzzy. Warm wet breathe easily. wombspace
happy, dark, warm, nothing to do.... so nice.
Then, oh snap, I gotta go do something, but I can't remember what. Can't stop it don't want to go. Fuck stop it noooooo feet first blocking stop please
crying crying can't breathe
GASP!
first breath. cold, bright, alone, don't know what to do why did I come back? I can't remember....
I had a good reason, but I can't remember what it was.
I like colors. bright colors, white red green blue yellow want to go over to the colors. can't move. how do I move? push push push want want want struggle struggle ongoing no going. Sometimes the colors come to me.
No longer "I don't know what to do," but now "I can't remember what to do."